Had a good little trip skiing and gambling with my parents.. Tomorrow
Al and I take off for another little trip. Feeling pretty good about
things, now. =)

I've been in a weird confused restless state for the past bit.

It's funny to realize that after all this, I spent over 6 years working
for Nullsoft, Inc. (or its acquiror) -- this is nearly a quarter of my 
life so far, and a much higher percentage of my adult(ish) life -- and 
here I am, starting over. 

I feel like whatever I do next is pretty much doomed to fail*. Not that 
I have any real plans, but maybe I need to do something that I don't 
want to succeed anyway. 

* it's very common, it seems, for the second project to be at most a marginal
success-- it's super common in the tech field, but happens everywhere -- look 
at Zwan**, for instance (no offence mr. corgan, but forget about jesus).
(edit: OK so I was a little bit hard on Zwan there, it was just such a 
let down after how good earlier Smashing Pumpkins albums, and Slint, were.. 
That's really unfair for me to use them as an example anyway, since they 
probably didn't say "ZWAN IS GONNA BE SO HUGE". Anyway, I digress)

** Christophe points out to me that the Smashing Pumpkins started sucking at
the end, too, so this isn't a good point 

Maybe I'll manage to escape that fate, I don't know. I'm not in a super huge
hurry to find out, but I do still want to create things. I guess the trick is
denying yourself ambition (which seems to find its way to you, regrettably), 
and to just make shit for the sake of making it.  Not because you think it'll 
be big, not because it's "what you're doing next", but rather, because it's 
interesting. To you. Whether or not anybody else cares, is their business. 

Having said that, when I start releasing new things, I hope people will take 
it the right way -- that I'm just doing the same thing I started doing 6 or
7 years ago.

Just updated my .plan at landoleet.org, too. Won't repeat it here (in two words:
I've resigned). So begins chapter 3... or something cliche/poetic there.
Or wait, does I've count as a single word? ha ha.

stood up by my brother...

So I think I'm getting addicted to coffee. which is OK, thus far,
though I think my dentist is going to give me a hard time. Just sometimes
after a part of a day of working but focusing a lot, I get sorta out of
it and my head starts hurting, but a cup or two of coffee seems to bring
be back to normal... anyway...

Put together a Jesusonic 0.97 release. Mostly just little updates. Started
playing around with making a random intelligent drum sequencer, but didn't
get it to the point of being useful yet.

Went to lucky chances to play some poker (NL holdem cash game) last night 
with Biderman... did pretty well, had a good combination of luck and not 
making too many mistakes. Fun stuff, need to go do it more. I seem to have
the "partysong" which should be titled "new year" or something like that 
(from my last post) stuck in my head. kinda good, the song's a bit too long
and drawn out tho, and a bit chaotic at times, but has a very strange effect
on me... it's not quite sad, not quite happy, just sort of is. 

Woo, spent new years in NYC, going home tomorrow. Yay for WA5, 
it really turned out great. We should have 5.02 ready in the next week
or two.

waiting outside the theater for my woman so we can g3t d1nn3r

mmm breakfast this morning -- the cornbread and apple sauce was sadly 
the best part.

subwaying back to brooklyn

such big buildings here

whee new years in nyc... union square

Woo, finally launch[ed,ing]. I read the news.com article about this, and I'd 
just like to mention that Brennan and Aus played extremely important roles
in the development and launch of Winamp 5, and we greatly appreciate 
everything they contributed. And we'll miss working with them :/

sittin in phx airport

Ah relaxing in AZ. Missing my girl, had good dreams about kissing her last
night... It's been a very very good 4 years. 

Monday (the 15th) we're gonna launch wa5. woot.

OK so to clear up any confusion, WA5 should be out sometime in the near
future. Soon. Steve says Dec 15 now, haha. But seriously, just a few issues
that someone really screwed the pooch on getting done in time, and should
be taken care of soon. Brennan and Aus are no longer with us, an they will
be missed, but Winamp will be OK. :/